We took the boys to get their school supplies for this year & with getting the book bags & all the other stuff they needed we spent around $150.00. That doesn't include buying any new shoes or clothes for the new school year, it is getting ridiculous.

Anyway, the boys got to pick out their new book bags & they are really proud of them. Jaydon got a "Go Diego, Go" one for $7.00, Trystan got one for $17.00 & Donavon got his book bag that he has been wanting for awhile, it has wheels on it for $23.00.

Amy went to the doctor about her tooth yesterday, she has been having a rough time with it for awhile. They gave her "Tramadol" for the pain. They said she has an exposed nerve, ouch! She is going to go Monday & turn in her application to "Healing Hands" to see if she can some dental work through them done, I hope she can. If she does after she gets her tooth fixed I will see about getting some of mine worked on. Like I said the other day we are doing a lot better with money than we were I just hope we don't make to much to where Amy get her some help.

We did our bills last night & we are doing ok, we still are making more than we have going out, it is just if we could get some of these credit cards, & loans paid off we would be doing better. If worse comes to worse we can always take some of next years tax return & get some of these bills off of us.

I am going through something right now, you know I have mentioned before I was raised Southern Baptist & I live in the South, so I live in the Bible belt. Well I am interested in things that they would look down on. Let me start from the beginning, I had a dream the other night about Samhain "Halloween" & in the dream I was a Wiccan.

Well I mentioned my dream to Amy, & she knows the things I am interested in, so she said to me maybe I would be happier as a Wiccan. So I have been reading up on it a lot more lately. I knew what they believed in already because like I said I was interested in things for awhile.

I find what they believe in very interesting, but I have a lot of baggage with me from being raised Southern Baptist. I am not putting it down don't get me wrong, but you are taught certain things & well I was taught them at an early age, & I am almost 37 so I have been in this "belief" for my entire life.

All I want to be is happy, well as happy as a Bipolar can be, lol. I want to except the things I find to be true not what I am told to believe but like I said I have this baggage, & one of the things I was taught was if you don't except Jesus as the only way to heaven you'll go to hell.

That opens another chapter, lol, I believe in heaven but my view of heaven differs from the view of the Christian heaven. I believe heaven will be a place of whatever you desire it to be. If you have ever seen the movie "What Dreams May Come" then you know what I am talking about. Like in my heaven I will have snow & mountains with wolves that roam them, I love wolves. I will be in a peaceful place for all eternaty, unlike my life here on earth.

I believe in a hell but I believe it will be different for everyone who goes there, the worse you were on earth the worse your hell will be. Now as far as reincarnation I believe it is a possibility, I have experienced deja vu to many times to say it isn't a possibility.

What I find amazing is this, how anyone of any religion can say they know for sure without any doubt what so ever that their religion is the right one. I have seen & I have been through to much stuff to say I know anything for certain. Esp. about life after death, I mean the only ones who knows for sure about that don't come back & tell us how it is. Well unless you believe in ghosts, or spirits may be the better word & I happen to believe in them

So that is what I am going through right now, at least I have the support of Amy, she just wants me to be happy. I guess that is why we get along as good as we do, we see eye to eye on a lot of things & on the things we don't we allow the other one to have their own opinion.

Hi Jamie! Thanks for the warm wishes. I'm pretty excited, I have to admit.

As to the dilemma you're facing, I would just like to say that it's been my personal experience that following MY spirit instead of doing what everyone else thinks I should do often makes me a lot happier. You have a tough challenge, I know, because you're in a predominantly Christian area, populated by .... ummm... shall we say "enthusiastic" people. Things can be very rough on non-Christians - I have friends who live in the Bible belt and who have faced numerous obstacles because of their beliefs.

Personally, Jamie, my opinion is that you should do whatever feels right TO YOU. If Wicca feels right to you, then go for it. It won't be an easy path to follow, but you may be a lot happier than if you continue to follow something you're not sure whether you believe in....